Waking up, I feel afraid.
I feel afraid of a new day.
Afraid of habit, of routine.
Afraid that everything's the same.
Looking in the mirror I see,
The same searching, wanting me.
How long must I sit and watch
All adventure on a screen?
Why can't those stories, thrills of life,
The excitement, love I see
The life of strong, heroic deeds,
Why can't they fall to me?
It seems when I get out of bed,
I don't dread the tears or pain.
I dread the fact, that when I rise
Not a thing will have changed.
Why am I here, if all I do,
Is live life mechanically.
A walking vision of routine.
Unknown identity.
That can't be right, that's not the way.
There must be something more.
Where's the honor in a life
When you doubt what you live for?
Then it hits me. Of course, that's it.
I do know why I live.
To learn, to grow, to love, to see.
To pray, to laugh, to give.
My life is an adventure.
Everyday is a new quest.
A journey to help those I can.
And just try to be my best.
No need to wake up so afraid
That all will be the same
For when I head into the day
I'm the one who makes the change.
I love this SO much! This is literally how I feel every day of my life! I just feel like there's something more, and I'm tired of the same old thing! I really liked your ending, though! :) Thanks tons!
ReplyDeleteWow! Such great words - gave me goosebumps to read it!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I was hoping people could relate! :)
ReplyDeleteThis is pretty great!Awesome flow to it.that would be really cool if you put one of these to music sometime. You are super talented! Keep working at it
ReplyDeleteWow! What a great way to share feelings! I really felt your initial frustration and a calm resolution as it ended. I actually thought the words, "That explains a lot about the person." I actually am the opposite, and find change difficult. :)
ReplyDeleteI feel this same way too often! Like I am trapped. Then, I talked to a dear GLOWING friend yesterday who looked at me, with delight in her eyes, and exclaimed, "I just can't get to bed at night sometimes because I am SO EXCITED ABOUT THE NEXT DAY!!!!" She is a stay at home mom who struggles with her own trials so I knew it was a choice she made. I resolved to adopt that as my attitude as well and your post went right along with that! Thanks!
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